6 weeks

I am 6 weeks postpartum today. Today is my start day. My weight today is my start weight. I am about 5-6 lbs. from my pre-pregnancy weight. Which would be a good thing, except I was fat before I got pregnant. So I have a long way to go.

A few weeks ago, Russ convinced me to buy a cheap pair of pants, just so I wouldn't have to wear maternity pants anymore. Unfortunately, I'm still wearing maternity shirts. Although, my maternity shirts seem to have shrunk since my first pregnancy. Um right....that's it;) The good news is that I can almost wear my pre-pregnancy pants. They are a little tight, but I can at least button them up. Well...they are sort of my pre-pregnancy pants. They're the pants I bought for my birthday last year when I first found out I was pregnant. I had bought a pair of pants 1 size up so that I could wear them longer into the pregnancy. So I'm at least moving in the right direction.

My Story

I've struggled with my weight pretty much my whole life. Well at least since puberty. I was never really that big, but never a skinny mini either. I thought I was heavy in High School, but of course now I wish I could be that small again. I was probably at my smallest (as an adult) just before college or just before I got married (I'm not sure which). But then I got married and had a big life style change (and started taking a crappy birth control pill) and quickly put on about 25 lbs. I haven't been able to lose that weight since and have even put on a little more.

A couple of summers ago, I started losing weight. But then I lost my motivation because we decided to try for another baby and then the holidays hit and I put back on the weight. Then I got pregnant, then I miscarried and turned to food for comfort, then I got pregnant again. So yeah, not exactly the best circumstances for weight loss. So now here I am after giving birth to my second child and I can finally start trying to lose weight again. Wish me luck!

Welcome to my Weight Loss Blog

I have decided to start a blog to chronicle my weight loss. Why? Because I need a place to report to and a place where I can express my thoughts, frustrations, triumphs, etc. I need a place where I can be real and completely honest. I'm going to tell it like it is. It's my blog and I can write if I want to.....so if you don't like it, then don't read it. The reality is that I AM FAT! People will say that I'm not (just to make me feel better). But I am. I really am. I have a lot to lose--over 50 lbs. to reach my goal weight. As I get closer, I may find that my goal weight is unrealistic and may have to change it a bit, but for now I think it is reasonable. I'm not going to say what my current weight is, at least not yet, because well...I'm just way too embarrassed. Unfortunately I can't go gun ho with the weight loss yet (well technically I can, but...) because I just have so much going on right now. I just can't completely focus on it. But I can at least do better than I have been and I need to stop making excuses for my bad eating habits. So now is the time to start my weight loss journey.

Oh, and just in case you were wondering, Ally is a nickname I've been given at work and Fat Ally sounds better than Fat Alicia.